Spring and All it Brings

Well the first days of Spring were wondermous! The girls played outside, the dog played outside, and I turned the heat off in the house. I love when that day arrives. To open the windows and let the fresh air in just puts you in a whole different place. Plus it kind of made me feel like part of the real world again. Life beyond this pregnancy is fast approaching and I get more anxious with everyday. to think three more weeks to go is just crazy. Considering where I started I never thought I would make it to this day. The only thing I hope is that she doesn't come in the next three days. Darin is on his way to the airport to fly to Minnesota and I just know that will be the time she chooses to come. Let's hope not.

But with the good there always seems to come the bad. Spring has also brought sickness to the Eleazarraraz home. Zoie has been sick since Sunday so I finally broke down and took her to the doctor today when it appeared she wasn't getting any better. Low and behold she has the strep throat. I guess we couldn't allude this ugly beast forever. Growing up as a kid I never had it and so far neither one of my kids have had it. Just my luck we will all have it by the end of the week and I hear it's horrible in adults so I'm really looking forward to it. My mom is coming to stay with me for a couple of days why Darin is gone and I gave her fair warning. Bless her heart she's coming anyway. May God be with us all. Plus it's cold today! What's the deal? I hate being teased! You can't give me a couple of warm, nice, fresh days and then yank them away to replace it with cold, windy, gloomy weather. Oh well, I know one of these days it will be here today. I wish it cold stay Spring all year round.

I think the one thing that I'm going to dread about the Spring time is the bugs it brings with it. Every speck of dirt, crumb on the floor, and shadow on the wall has turned into a horrible man eating bug. This really puts a damper on our outside play. I had to give my girls a flyswatter to take with them outside the other day and that still didn't work. So if there are any parents out there that have any advice for me on how to curb this fear please share.

What Doesn't Kill Us Makes Us Stronger

It's amazing and a bit upsetting that it takes hard times and sometimes even a tragedy to make us look at our lives and appreciate all we've been given. I wouldn't say that I never appreciated what I had, but I would definitley say that I took things for granted. I am very proud to say that from as far as I can tell, at this moment in my life, that will never be the case again. I have had so much time to reflect on my life past, present and future for the last few months. I have come to realize that it is a complete blessing that I will cherish for the rest of my life. Not too many people get the chance to slow down and take a break from real life. Not too many people get to take advantage of the time to evaluate your life with no distractions. Now I'm not saying that I haven't had distractions, but I have definitley had the time to deal with the distractions, accept them and take time for myself.

From all the negative that has been going on with me and my family for the past few months there are so many positive things that have came out of it. Not only have I got to spend some well overdue quality time with my family, but we have grown closer and stronger. There aren't even words to express the support and love that I have received from my husband during this time. He has been so supportive and kept me going when I thought I couldn't go anymore. He has been understanding, helpful and a continuous pillar of strength for me in all areas. I can never thank him enough for helping me keep my peace of mind. My children have been great! I have had the priviledge of getting the time to be their mother and to actually get to know my kids. Before it just felt like I was a mom from a distance, putting the burden of being mother and father on my husband. It gives me a huge sense of satifaction now knowing that I can be in that mom role for them.

On one last note the support and love I have gotten from my friends has been overwhelming! Having the opportunity to find out who your real friends are is priceless. The constant cards, kind words, and support has been a true blessing to me and my family. It's the small things that keep me going day to day as I anxiously anticipate the arrival of my little miracle. I cannot wait for everyone to meet the little girl that this has all been for. The little girl that has already changed my life before I even saw her beautiful face. Changed my life for the better.