Man it's been a long time since my last post! Oh well, better late than never right? My life has been chuck full of ups and downs, ins and outs since the last time you heard from me. One of the biggest highlights of my life has been joining our new church family at Crossroads Christian and being baptized with my husband! Nothing is more special than being on the same spiritual page as your significant other and entering into a new journey with them with God on your side. "There ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no valley low enough" quoted from a very popular song, sang by artists that I have never heard of. I know this because I Googled it. But this would sum up how I feel at this moment in my life. Like I can overcome any obstacle or work through any problem thrown my way. Some of you may roll your eyes at this moment, but trust me, don't knock it until you try it. It's the best feeling!
One of the most important things I have learned through this journey over the past several months is the good Lord is knocking on my heart and I really need to answer. He is wanting to show me things that I have questioned for a very long time. Some of these things being "how can I be a better mom to my kids?", "or a better wife to my husband?", or maybe the most important one of all "how can I leave my mark in this world?" How can I reach people, through the word of God, to better this world? I know deep right? But thanks to some very important people that have been placed into my life this is my number one goal on my list. I guess you could say that I am tired of just existing, going through the same motions day after day, without doing anything that I can say that I am proud to be apart of. I challenge each and every person reading this to take a step back. Think about your lives and what you want your life to be. What do you want to be remembered for?
The first step in my journey is working on becoming a better mom to my kids! How do I want my kids to remember me? Or how do I want them to remember there childhood? Over the past year I have been babysitting in my home, which allowed me to stay home with my baby Ava while making a little extra money to make the ends meet. I am so thankful for this opportunity because it allowed me to be around full time for the first year of my baby's life. That's something that I didn't get the privilege of doing with my older two girls. But as the summer approached I got to thinking how awesome it would be to just be able to stay home with my three girls and take advantage of all that the summer had to offer. How I would love to devote 100% of my attention to my girls and picnic in the park, or go to the lake on those hot days to cool off, or go on those impromptu visits to family and friends. Unfortunately with all the perks that babysitting brought to me one of the downfalls was being confined to my home all day everyday. Not having that flexibility to spend that precious time with my kids was really weighing on my heart. Then it dawned on me....why not take advantage of the summer and spend it with my kids? Well the first scary thought that entered my head was, the money. That extra money I was making each week, could we live without it? Could we cut back in some areas to make this dream a possibility? After a few seconds of contemplation the answer was obvious! YES, it was possible. I would gladly exchange eating out several nights a week for the opportunity to spend the summer with my kids! I would gladly cut back on the frivolous spending to be able to take advantage of this opportunity!
I have faith and peace of mind because I know the good Lord will provide. He always has, and with faith, he always will. We are taking it one day at a time, and not one of those days will go by for granted. This summer is not only for my kids, but it's also an opportunity for me to concentrate on what mother I want to be and what I want my kids to remember. Of course none of this would be possible without the love and support of my husband, Darin. He has been my rock and my biggest supporter over the last year and a half and I thank God everyday for giving me such a great partner in life.
The moral of this blog is that if God has laid a burden on your heart, whatever it may be, don't ignore it! Mine was my children and taking the time out of life to spend quality time with them. What is your burden?
